Life within the fog
The past month sped by with alarming ferocity, full of waiting, of hope, of unanswered questions. It grabbed hold and pulled me into an alternative reality, a parallel universe that was much the same and yet altogether different at the same time.
Contradictions & Ambiguity
A month lived full of contradictions and ambiguity. Though the outer world felt muffled and distorted, like looking into a foggy mirror, clarity grew as I adjusted to find new ways of navigating through the uncertainty.
There were moments I felt like an outsider looking in, my experiences somehow removed from the rest of the world. Like standing in the stillness at the eye of the storm, seeing the chaos around me yet choosing to trust myself and my decisions.
In the past month, I’ve learned to honor the quiet hum of my being, that voice inside that wanted to be heard and needed me to listen. That voice was not always in harmony with what everyone else thought or said, but it was the guidance that I chose to trust which helped me to move forward each day.
I have a new appreciation for the power of resilience, of trusting in yourself to find solutions, and cultivating the courage to take on all that comes your way. Throughout this journey, I’ve gained a deeper understanding of myself by remembering my Human Design, the innate wisdom of my body, and the unique ways in which I show up in the world. Most importantly, it’s taught me to advocate fiercely for those whom I love and honor my authentic voice over any external expectations, especially in our current “healthcare” system.
April saw us saying goodbye to our sweet pup, Forrest, a 9-day hospitalization and still unresolved health issues for Daphne, and the passing of my dad at the age of 86. What a wild, unpredictable, and tumultuous month this has been! And yet, amidst the chaos of uncertainty and loss, I feel more grounded than ever. For me, it’s an opportunity to fully open up to how life shows up in its fullness – both the joys and sorrows – with trust that we are held in something greater.
What will you choose?
I choose today to forge ahead with purpose, passion, and with genuine compassion for others – grounded in the knowledge that we are all connected. Through it all, I am learning more of what it means to be a caregiver, a daughter, a sister, and a friend and to live every day with an abundance mindset, knowing that I am ready for this next chapter, no matter the awaiting adventures.